I dont wanna grow up
What a shit...
as u know in some days ..the 6 octobre..i'm gonna turn 22...
and only God knows how i dont want that shit!!
hey .. since my 18 i'm just so focus on that fucked age..does it lead my life?? it seems yes ..for what i remind,when i was a bit younger i thought that when i'll be 22 it wld be sooooo fantastic.. i wld go out everynight having fun, and i wld study and it wld be soooooo interesting ...i wld have soo many friends so lovely and the world wld be surely better ! naive? yes surely ...
instead of what i've been dreaming of,i've got a boring life .. study and in the worst major u can have.. harder than the law( what 's the hell is about ??)i have no time to go out.. no time to share my time with my friends.. and by the way most of them just live abroad right now.. and what right now they just tell us we have to workkk sooooooooo HHHHARRDDD just to get into the next level..and so on.. we have for the next semester, the memoire (+ the oral presentation), the classes ( + the homeworks, the forced classes( in small groups) and the exams of the groups + the final exams), we also have a stage ( sureeeee for 4 months+ the report and + the presenation of this report) and for sure alll of that in the same time :-)
IT seems that..its gonna be so hard...maybe i cant reach it..well i do feel it.. the teacher mister cumin said " ohh if u pass till now, it will be easy" yes sureeeeeee , and i'm the queen mom ,full of formol..
and why do i have a memoire?? <WHY did i choose the most complex major?? am i crazy ?? do i have psycho problems?? i guess .. yes ..unfortunately..
and for the moment, no surprise Mr Joubert was not even here to his class..it starts really fine !!
no but no..i shld stay optimistic..not everyone is in my faculty wich is a real good one.. and maybe if its harder my life then wld be easier..
i just feel so much pressure..like not everything is in my hands..i'm just dependant on so many things....thank God some people are so nice to me.. but then this year 's gonna be maybe the most important in my life and i feel like i'm not ready for it :-)
they shld tell us its gonna be hard.. maybe as my exbf said : " u are too overprotected" .. pfff dumbass