Am I a victim?
yes ... but no :-)
a lot of my friends or people i'm talking with.. have told me something like " u still wanna be a victim" ..
but do i really want it??
sure i do use often the " its not my faultttt" " yes everyone is against me" .. but actually its only the truth :-) yes sure i do like to explain and express my bad mood .. its just that i feel often submerged by everything... so yes in that moment i need to explode and i dont understand why all the hardest things are for me..
hey i'm nice adorable beautiful and smart ( and modest sometimes before sleeping) so why wld i worth the worst?
i didnt deserve it !!
maybe Dieu ( God) is doing it only to force me to be less lazy.. to express my real personnality, to show my real face.. but what if i dont want ??
do people have to know if u're weak or not?? sure not ..
the best is to be protected.. as they know u're kind they try to abuse it..
but in a way maybe its because i am me that things are worst for me.. maybe if i was more kind or i dunno more someone else it wld be easier.. and i wont be saying " c'est pas ma faute" .. ahah or maybe i just have psycho probs :-) lol who knows?
only the virgin Marie know it ..
but then maybe its related to my non lucky personnality .. if something bad has to happen it will be for me..u can be sure of it .. when i do explain my stuff and memories, people most of time think i'm lying , but i have no reason to lie .. and the day it happens in front of them they do realize i'm really unlucky ..
so maybe i'm a victim..but ... THIS IS STILL NO MY FAULT !